I am looking for Light ..

The Light I am looking for, is not on earth, neither in space.
This Light has nothing to do with sun, nor with electricity.
It is not natural, not artificial.
This is not a religious, or a spiritual Light either.

This is the Light of satisfaction of being alive,
of my strong excitement in front of abstract or concrete realities
of Earth and Space
to the Infinite.

This is the Light of my deep and intense feeling
in front of dreams, thoughts and treasures
hidden in the dark deepness of the subconscience,
provoked by the conscience and logic,
senses and feelings.

In fact, to see that light, we don’t need our eyes.

My purpose is to visualise this enchantment, this exaltation by paintings,
to try to share it with others.
This is the reason for which my message is simple, direct and minimal.
Although my main subject matter is Simple Light,
I may have abstract compositions
or figurative means, like ’’Hands’’ to express it.

Those hands which obey to our brain,
and mysteriously,
create surprises
beyond
the orders and expectations.

When the accidents of the painting medium, brushes and the technique
join those surprises ,
results forcing and surpassing my control limits appear.
And my only control mechanism, except the choice of colors,
remain the decision to take to go more or less further,
not to lose what I get at a precise moment.

Exactly as in Life, the most difficult is to take a decision,
to make a choice and to find, with courage, a balance
without being imprisoned
between surprises and a certain control mechanism.

Figen Cebe
Bern, April 2000




Does This Painting Have a Title ?

It is difficult
to give a title
to this one
and to the others.
If I said that all have the same
and put on a date, an hour..

Abstraction
is an easy way
to express
deep realities…

When, which is inside
opposes to
what is seen from outside,
my paintings reflect
an inner world.

Which is hidden behind this façade
which cannot be expressed ,
be shared by words,
become coded papers, canvases.

The message which is in this Light
that I search with paints,
and colors,
that I find,
and I lose
with brushes
is a Light-ening
which,
maybe will reach its destiny.

The distress in which I am, during this search,
the exaltation that I feel when I think to get close to it,
the satisfaction I have when I believe to reach it,
and the fear of losing it every moment,
is a search of Infinite
in the small period of time
called Life.

Bern, June the 8th 2000.
Figen Cebe